A dream with some commentary.
“I travel to Berlin at the behest of my friend Mario who is something of a cultural impresario. Mario fails to meet me at the airport and I can’t get him on the phone. I call Stiletto and Kirstein and hang out with them instead. The next day I manage to meet up with Mario. He’s been on a bender and doesn’t feel like making the TV interview he’d flown me over to do happen. He says it can be postponed for a day or two. I tell him I have to return to London that night. He suggests I change my flight. I tell him I can’t prolong my stay in Berlin. He organises the TV interview. After the interview I go to the Tricky Tunes record shop because I want to catch up with Christoph who is at work there.”
My dreams are always like this, very prosaic. They are one of a number of reasons I think psychology and related practices like psychoanalysis suck. My first two trips to Berlin were made in the 1980s and I stayed with Stiletto and Kirstein on the first trip, and Graf Haufen on the second (I knew them all through the International Neoist Network). Mario Mentrup put on the first public event I ever did in Berlin in the mid-1990s. I tried to meet Mario when I was in Berlin a few months ago doing an event for Christoph Fringeli, but he was tired and busy and we failed to connect.
Since I also have a lot of dreams in which I have pleasurable consensual sex, there is no essential difference between my waking life and my so called ‘subconscious’. Indeed, just before going to post this blog (which I’d prepared yesterday) I checked my email and Mario Mentrup had sent me the transcript of an interview I’d done with him in 2004. I’d not seen this interview before because it had been spiked, and had forgotten I’d ever done it. There is so little difference between my waking life and my dreams that applying fraudulent notions such as sublimation, repression, displacement, denial, reaction formation, intellectualisation or projection to both them and to me is completely ridiculous!
And while you’re at it don’t forget to check – http://www.stewarthomesociety.org/ – you know it makes (no) sense!